tw: generational violence // the death of mr. belding is literally gaslighting my nostalgia-core era and i am finally entering my non-linear era

i literally cannot even breathe right now. i woke up, tried to manifest some positive energy with my matcha, and then i saw the news that dennis haskins passed away. like, i know i didn't personally know him, but the fact that the universe decided to remove him from the timeline right as i was entering my 'vintage academic' era is actually such a microaggression. i was literally just about to start wearing oversized blazers and carrying a leather briefcase to my therapy appointments to channel that 90s principal energy, and now the vibe is just... gone. ruined.

honestly, death is such a boundary violation. it's literally the ultimate form of gaslighting because it's trying to convince me that things are permanent and final, which is totally antithetical to my journey of fluid identity. like, why is the concept of mortality trying to manipulate my nervous system today? i feel like i'm being emotionally held hostage by a news cycle that doesn't even care about my sensory overload. it's giving me the ick that we're just supposed to "process grief" when i'm literally just trying to maintain my current aesthetic frequency.

my aura is actually fraying from the stress of this sudden shift. it's like the world is engaging in a toxic attachment with the past and then just snapping the cord without giving me a heads-up or a trigger warning. i can feel my cortisol spiking and my social battery is already at 2% just from thinking about how this affects my mood board. i'm officially in my non-linear era because the linear progression of time is simply too aggressive for my peace.

because i'm basically in a state of total psychic collapse, i've had to pivot. i can't let this generational trauma ruin my skin routine, so i've added the 'legacy-void aura-shielding weighted eye-mask' to my amazon storefront. it's a hand-woven, organic mulberry silk mask infused with crushed amethyst and rose quartz to literally block out the negative frequencies of celebrity mortality and protect your third eye from the violence of the news cycle. it's $245 but honestly, your mental health is a luxury you can't afford to skip. link in bio, stay soft.